Friday the Beginning

The beginning of our life together - for real, forever more, is going to be this coming Friday. Can you believe it, because I can't ! This Friday ! It's going to be 18th January 2013... I'm not sure how this date came ... but well, since there is not supposed to be any belief about good dates and bad ones - I shouldn't think too much about it - but my point here is that it's going to be in another - well, in less than 24 hours !!!! It's going to happen this coming 10 A.M. , on 18th January! A Friday ! That's my favourite day of the week!!! And yes, this whole little article here is going to be accompanied by the exclamation mark parasites.  

So, I took the guts - and all the guts in my body and in my mind - I might have invented them on the way - to walk into the court of Syariah in order to get my Wali Hakim. Or Wali Raja. I heard Wali Hakim but in the paper it was written Wali Raja. To be really honest, I disliked all the procedures of getting married. It was troublesome - with lots of paper thus lots of tree parts being wasted - stamped and ink and shredded and all. I was just thinking that, there should be no necessary sacrifice for the success of my marriage. However, I am more than thankful for the help I had gotten from dear's parents. They helped us out so much, I don't know how else to be thankful. Last few nights I have had some fights with dear, but then to think about it, I shouldn't have been too harsh and I should lower my expectations. Dear's parents really helped us so much, helped us from A - Z... and they had been there to support us throughout the whole time. Seriously, without them I didn't think I was going to be able to do it all by myself. 

I walked into the court - with nervousness in me - and I had to witness the case before mine. It was a divorce case, and I felt sad for the lady. She said she did not wish to stay on with the husband because of some of the things that he had done - whatever, even though I do not know the lady and she doesn't know me, I am not sharing what I had heard in the court - for some reason I feel the need to respect her, because honestly it has got nothing to do with me - and I wished I could just shut my hearing system for that time frame while she was explaining and answering the lawyers' questions. 

Anyway, when it was my turn, I got very nervous but kept remembering something that my friend from the Mualaf Intensive Course, Belinda said - "Babe, you didn't do anything wrong, why are you so scared?" in whatsapp. So I tried to keep my cool and the judges spoke very softly like soft kitty and I had to "Huh?", and "Sorry?". Gosh! 

However, I have this inside of me now - From This Moment - ALL THE TIME !