I wish...

Last night, to get that feeling I got when I first watched The Secret Life of Walter Mitty, I suggested to my other half that he watch the movie with me. I watched it the first time with my friends - which I could not stop wishing to have my husband with me during the movie because of the magnificent roads in Iceland. He would very much love the roads... I think every biker would. So, we did. We watched the movie and the song Space Oddity got stuck in my head. I remembered having the song few years back - at that time I wanted to listen to something different - something that had nothing to do with love, so I downloaded that grand piece by David Bowie. Honestly I had forgotten the song, until I searched for the song again upon hearing it in the movie. 

I never really liked Ben Stiller when he acted in The Night at the Museum, Meet the Parents, Meet the Folks and all those other previous movies he acted in. I only started liking him when I watched the movie which was directed by himself. I saw him in a different light somehow. He really did very good there. Very, very good. 

I have realized some deterioration in myself. I have often thought that I am better; getting better in terms of the values which I have consciously put on top on the list - Patience, Love,... but recently I have been more skeptical about things than ever. 

I bought some food for our dinner on Thursday night, and I did not even turn back to give some of the food to the poor who was sitting on the floor. He looked at me and my plastic and I walked past him. What was wrong with me? I did not think much about what I was supposed to do. I know I was deep in my own thoughts - I always am, but upon realizing the fact that some hungry man out there who could not even afford buying the most basic food, and yet I walked away without giving him a penny, I was one heartless person. 

Why is there such thing as using another person to get whatever that you want? Why do people forget the good things that had been given to them.. good deeds showered upon them?

First post of Year 2014

Today is 3rd January 2014. Who can believe it's already 2014?? 2013, a year seemed so new, still so new, still fresh - is gone! It's over. Know what that represents? It represents ...discontentment.

In another 15 days, Dear and I are going to be married for a year. Alhamdullillah.

What have I learnt in 2013...? Some lessons were repeated. Some lessons were just... new and yet felt so old. Some felt so new, even though they occurred at some point in my life before. 

Well, in year 2013, I had come to learn that, there are some people out there who are somehow just successful, even though so much shit come their way. 

I had also learnt that I appreciate a few values. Honesty. Sincerity. These two were closely related - or rather totally in my 2013. 

They say a year older, a year wiser. Yes, but I wouldn't say a year. I would say an event older, an event wiser. Well, some happenings in the newly previous year had taught me that good times don't last, and bad times don't too.

Let me just sum up the whole year's highlighted event in my 2013. 

January : Marriage 

February : Dear got into an accident on the way to work, English Classes for AEON staff

March : 

April : GEMS & NGND English Classes

May : 

June : TME Sales English Classes

July : 

August : Johor for Raya with in laws, Sungai Besar for Raya with in laws. 

September : Went back hometown - met Emily !!!! and her son Jasper!!! 

October : 

November : Accident at Cameron Highland

December : Went to Penang, Perlis, Pahang, Terengganu...Went back to hometown, my grandma's sister in law got admitted to hospital.

I want to remember only the good things. I of course, cannot help remembering the bad ones, but I think it's important to not damage my happy cells inside my brain.